19.04.2016 - You're not there

I only got you in my stories

And you know I tell them right

I remember you and I, when I'm awake at night

So give it up for fallen glory

I never got to say goodbye

I wish I could ask for just a bit more time

 Just a bit more time, just a bit more time to say goodbye.

Every step I take, you used to lead the way

Now I'm terrified to face it on my own

 You're not there

To celebrate the man that you made

You're not there

To share in my success and mistakes

Is it fair?

You'll never know the person I'll be

You're not there

With me

Who should I ask if I'm alright, if I'm doing the right thing. Is it fair that you don't know me anymore, don't know who I became and where I am.

Though I know that you're not there

I still write you all these post

It's like you got the right to know what's going on

As I struggle to remember how you used to look and sound

At times I still think I can spot you in the crowd

Always thinking you just left for a moment, not my whole life. I can't even remember your smile or your laugh anymore and that breaks me everytime.

Time can heal your wounds if you're strong and standing tall

I've been doing all of that, it didn't help at all

They say, "You'll grow older, and it'll get better still."

Yes, I will, but no, it won't

They don't get it, 'cause

 You're not there

Time doesn't heal anything.

You're not there.

You left me.

It just me now.

Alone.

Love always,

Margaret